Unplanned job change….
Life has definitely been a roller coaster the last few years. Today was another dip. I got laid off.
Now, before everyone starts sending sympathy cards, let me add a little context. I knew it was coming. It still landed with a bit of a thud, but as layoffs go, I’m probably one of the last people who should complain.
First, my wife has been the family’s primary breadwinner for the last 18 years. We’re going to be okay financially.
Second, I was only planning on working another couple of years anyway.
Third, thanks to the wonderful world of Chicago Public Schools, I get to spend the next school year in the “reassigned teacher pool.” Translation: They’ll keep paying me my full salary while they send me somewhere else. That somewhere will either be a school that struggles to hire people (draw your own conclusions), or I’ll become a full-time substitute. Neither option was on my vision board, but I can handle either for a year.
Honestly, I know a lot more than I did nine years ago when I first walked into a difficult school. I’ve made plenty of mistakes, learned from them, and I’m far less likely to let the job consume me. If I end up in a challenging building, I’ll survive. I’ve done it before.
Still…it’s weird.
I’m 60 years old, and this is the first time I’ve ever been fired or laid off. Every other job I’ve ever had ended because I chose to leave. There’s something about having someone else make that decision for you that feels a little strange, even when you know it’s coming and even when, logically, you know you’ll be fine.
And I will be fine.
In fact, sitting here, I mostly feel grateful. Our kids are grown. The house will be paid off in about a year. We don’t have student loans hanging over us or little kids depending on every paycheck. We have been diligent about saving and investing for retirement, and were fortunate to inherit some money when my parents passed away.
I don’t know who else lost their jobs today, but I do know they’re almost certainly younger than I am. Many probably have toddlers at home, daycare bills, mortgages, student loans, and careers they thought were just getting started. For them, this could be a genuine crisis.
For me? It’s mostly an inconvenience.
Sure, it joins a fairly impressive collection of life’s little plot twists over the last five years. Apparently, the universe subscribed me to the “character-building” package. But compared to what so many people deal with, this barely registers.
Besides, on Friday, I leave for my annual summer trip to Utah. I’ll hike, bike, swim, kayak, and SUP. I’ll eat good food. I’ll spend time with great people. I’ll stare at mountains that have absolutely no interest in my employment status. I’ll breathe clean air, unplug a little, and remember that the world is still a pretty amazing place.
Life is funny like that. One day, you’re cleaning out your classroom. Three days later, you’re sitting on a mountain wondering why you ever worried in the first place.
It’s still a great day to be alive.
